10 days ago
I got inspired by this Kdrama called Strong Woman Do Bong Soon hahaha. It's both funny and amazing how I see so much of myself in Bong Soon--in her preferences, her personality, etc, but what inspired me really was how sure she was with what she wanted to do.
She loved video games and she pursued that path. That really stirred something in my heart. I want that too. Video games have been a huge part of my life since childhood. My dad is a gamer and he introduced me to RPG games to improve my reading haha.
But, here I am again, doubting myself because in the real world, it isn't as easy and smooth sailing as how Bong Soon landed her dream job. Aside from the fact that I don't have super powers like her and I don't have a Min Hyuk in my life hahaha but yeah, career paths are complicated in the real world. I wanted to pursue game dev back in college but because I failed my programming classes, I thought it wasn't for me and ended up just choosing a random path for my majors. I didn't know then that I had the option to pursue the art side of game dev. Well, now that I'm aware of it, I gotta get to work right? I need to improve my skills and know more about it if I want to pursue it. But the thought of "I've already wasted a lot of time" and "Am I not too old for this?" pops in. But then again, I'm 100% sure that if I turn away, I'll regret it for the rest of my life.
Another reason why I'm thinking twice is because I have this habit of adapting to people close to my heart and I'm honestly asking myself if I want this really, or do I only want this because someone wants it too. But then again, I'm 100% sure that if I turn away, I'll regret it for the rest of my life.
Ugh I don't know. I'm overanalyzing it again. For now, I'm sure of two things: if I won't get into Studio Ghibli (hahaha still aiming high) then I want to illustrate for video games.
With that, I decided to make a fan art of one of my favourite games: Chrono Cross ✨