2 days ago
In November 2018 I decided to log out of my personal social media account, namely Facebook with the commitment not to go online for a month as I had noticed that it was giving my no fulfilment and more often than not I was finding myself in an incredibly negative headspace after scrolling and it was massively impacting my mental health and so o decided I desperately needed to unplug and take a break!
I'll be honest, the decision to take a break wasn't as simple as I made it sound. I'll be honest, I was torn for a while and it took me a month of continuous back and forth thoughts to build up enough courage. I had an under minding fear. Fear that I'd loose touch with people, fear of missing out and the fear that I'd miss my profile which contains over a decade of photographs and memories. Despite these nagging feelings I kept asking myself; Do I really need Facebook? Do I really have any strong connections or friendships that souls rely on Facebook? Is it controlling my behaviours? Is is altering my mood? Is it doing more harm than good?
For me, my biggest problem with Facebook was the constant internal comparison. I'd see everyone with their friends whilst I was sat at home alone telling myself no one likes me. Friends would share news of new jobs, engagements, marriages, first homes, ect... and getting lots of likes and comments whilst I was posting I was severely suffering with ill mental health and no one would even ask how I was, making me believe that no one cared about me. It had a way of warping my mind, making me believe everyone's life was perfect, expect mine. It was extremely damaging.
After the first month I realised that all of those people who I thought I needed to keep up with... well, I hadn't even given them a single thought. Had I been affected by not seeing their lives for a month? Not a single bit! I also felt a significant decrease in loneliness, I felt I was able to be content sat at home alone, because I was no longer concerned with what everyone else was doing....
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